highly-strung

hello pallys .
 imma now write again , i feel better. but i still wanna start a new day, new life.
am i asking for too much? blah... ,like thats the way out.
that doesn't mean ,i'll wake up early ,sleep early , study ,stay home , listen to mom and dad . 
just normal la...
puh-leaseee , do i look like someone that have no own opinions , stfu. i know what i'm doing ....

so i went pick-up my little sister just now . she's vulnerable ,like worse than that ....geeee but she's still the youngster there ..... so what? mama didn't scold me for kickin' her outta the house also , i probably think she knew i ain't so good mood lately , cause she'd been dealing with my mood , ( she got screwed from me alottt) .just lately . she's really disrespectful , like clonnin me! 
OOPS SORREH.... 
she can really put up a fight .. like, really , she screams like nobody's bussiness , fuck my life....
she  tried to challenge me before, but c'mon la ,like obviously , she's afraid of me . banggbang =)
{theres story behind  tho,just inappropriate to post up , p.m if you wanna know .}
i haven't been sms-ing for awhile .. i doubt if i even touched my phonee today ..
maybe alex is right : i'm just bored
 boredom takes my soul away , and i have to deal with it .
lifes hard ....

if we think our lives are bad now,imagine if we didn't have luck.





love, jazz 
 p.s / i'll post something about the past , later. i'm out

insomnia ... :(

                                             hey readers 

i think i've got insomnia . like badly . what am i suppose to do? figure who chloe is   forgetting? 
or just watch tv for the whole midnight . the last time i really felt like i slept was ....  tuesday? blah..
i just don't wanna stuck and live like this anymore. how long will it last? i wanna talk to someone so badly. but i just don't trust anyone. well even if theres a few , how? will they understands me? 
 is it holidays causes all this shits? or just me , myself got some fucking problem .... 
when will all this end? will it end? gawdd ... 
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 -moodless , 
   <3 jazz 



  

i'm already gone

 dear readers .

no sarcasm , i'm still surviving but i don't have the ability to breathe , like nothing makes me wanna live. 
here's another day , i don't feel right ,for doing anything and decided to control myself from losing control of my temper. i'm finally thinking of tomorrow and i want time to pass really fast.i hated this life,i'm living but theres no ending,like it will never end. i'm not waiting for death, just the ways i'm dealing with my life ,ain't  cool ,no more. i sleep to get myself not think,my only way escape.
 everything's different.
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form 2 is over. form 3 is freaking me .i'm so not ready for everything to start. 
 i don't know why ,i'm feeling like that. tell me?  izzit because i can't get enough of him or it's because problems with friends? grrr....  maybe i'm really depressed with things i have to face when i don't have even a choice to choose to face it or not ... blargh! i wanna live happilly ! fml
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  i'll post something later. 
dealing wiv my mood again.
wanna get thru this fast man!=(
im out .